Contentment is underrated

This morning I woke up with this complete feeling of contentment. It has been a very long time since I have felt this.

A few weeks ago DSG and I DTR'ed, and the conclusion was to just be friends. If we had continued our relationship as it was going, we wouldn't have stayed friends after it broke apart. I know I haven't written much about it here, and I don't think that I ever will, but these last few months are not going to be ones I ever forget.

I find it amazing how over just the time period of a few months people can change so drastically. I am not who I was on my 25th birthday. I am so much stronger and mature and smart than I ever knew.

I started a new job, and I'm really loving it. I like my bosses, I like my bosses' bosses, I like my co-workeds and I love my job. I love working and I am so happy to be doing so. I have found myself to be so amazingly blessed. My new job comes with benefits. BENEFITS! I am a real grown up now.

Now that I have these, I am making new decisions for myself. I am looking into getting an IUD. It's much less expensive with health insurance and they are good for up to 12 years. I am extremely frightened of the process of getting it implanted, but I feel as if it is a good idea. I am thinking about maybe the possibility of having sex in the next few years. I don't know what could or would happen. I am just going day by day, living my life. It is better to be safe is something does happen, then to be freaking out about it. I want to take control into my own hands, and this is something I feel I need to do.

I'm also going to start studying for the GRE today. I want to go back to grad school and get my MBA in Entertainment Business. In order to get into a school, I first have to take the GRE. It's been six years since I've looked at math, and it all looks like Greek to me. However, I am confident that I will rock that test when I finally take it.

I am happy I have found this personal peace. It's been a long time coming, but it feels so good to be at this point, especially right now. I have so much to look forward to, and one day I will have someone to share all my joys with. It's just not today.

And I'm okay with that.