Things will turn around...

Let's play catch up:

Wrapped my show, went to New Jersey to help one of my dearest friends plan for her wedding (FINALLY the Maid of Honor!) and get a text from Charlie that he's had another attempt on his life. He was in the hospital when he messaged me, which probably means he was going to go back into treatment. I hope he gets some good treatment this time. I think when things actually start to go well for him, that he has to eff it up. He had a great job, a great apartment, and was looking at going back to school. He looked like he was getting healthier... I just can't date him again. That's done.

I started talking to my brother's ex again... We've actually reconciled our relationship and are as good of friends as we were before. Before you ask, my brother knows. He actually said I can be friend with who ever I want. I was really surprised at his maturity.

I met a guy at a bar back home, was led to believe he was actually going to call me. How foolish of me.   We had an interesting night. It's not that I'm upset that he didn't call, it's just that what he said when we were alone led me to believe that he was sincere. It was kind of my first one night stand (without the sex part, because HEY! still got my v-card WHOOP WHOOP!) and I was totally not expecting it. I saw him again at the same bar a few days later. Totally ruined my night with my friend... At least I got that experience out of the way.

Went out with brother's ex, Eva* (because now that she and I are friends again, I can't really call her that girl or that bitch anymore...) for her 21st birthday at downtown Orlando and guess who I ran into... DIBS!  I haven't seen him since last I wrote about him! How crazy is that!!! I was in this really great little black dress, with red lipstick and looking great. He gave me this huge hug and said I looked great. Several times! I ran into him a couple of times in the club, and the last time I thought I was just going to smile as I passed him but he stopped me and told me how great I looked again and then he gave me a kiss on the cheek! WHAT A GREAT END TO THE NIGHT!!! I was so thrilled!

Got back to my house around 3am. Get on Facebook just to check it before bed, and my very first crush from when I was 13 messaged me! We began flirting and then we started texting... It got a little dirty. We did this for about two weeks before we could actually meet, but something happened before I met up with him.

I got called to go to West Palm for a show for a week, then my friend asked me to join her on another show in Naples for a few days. There I met this other guy. Now, I try not to get involved with guys I work with after the whole thing that happened with KB. But... yeah, some times things happen. I keep bouncing back and forth between wether it's a good idea to get involved with someone in the industry or not. The pros and cons are about equal for either side. Anyway, we work during the day and the whole crew (there's 7 of us) has dinner and drinks together. I get along great with everyone and I really like working with this team a lot -- hopefully I'll get to do it more often. So that first night we were all hanging out, and then he and I ended up taking the elevator by ourselves and he invited me to come hang out with him. So I met him in his room a little after that... We were out on the balcony just looking at the moon over the ocean and he said something so corny and cheesy (and yet it was adorable): Not to make things awkward but I think you're kind of cute. We talked a little about not playing games and about being forward with what we meant. I then said the same thing back to him to be a little fun. And I don't think he's just cute, he's kind of gorgeous. He's got these great green eyes... Anyway! Things progressed. I did go back to my own hotel room, got about three hours of sleep, worked the next day... Half of the crew had to leave and some of us stayed to get some extra footage the next day. We all had dinner and drinks together again. Did some late night swimming. He and I kind of had this little flirtation thing, but we were trying not to let the rest of the crew know about it. A small crew, rumors fly... it's not good. Anyway, he invited me over again. I spent the night that time. There was no pretense, but this time I was definitely more clothed... (damn period!) The next day we got extra footage, and he had to drive me back to my car at the hotel. In his corvette. Yeah... He kissed me when he was dropping me off. We had a great day and a great chat in the car. He finally asked me for my number, and I teased him about wondering when he was going to ask me. He told me he could always find it on the callsheet. That impressed me a little. I find it attractive when a man knows how to find your number without you having to tell him... Maybe I'm a... okay there's not maybe about it -- I am a little weird. Anyway, we texted a very little bit. Because he works all the time (which is good) and I'm not really in South Florida right now... but that's okay. I'll run into him again for work probably sooner than either of us think.

Getting back to my first crush, so he and I finally hook up. We make out and mess around a little. And it's good, but the whole time I'm thinking about the last guy. It was only two days later. I will probably see him again, but nothing's really going to happen with it. I really needed to kiss him for thirteen-year-old me. I owed it to her! Our flirtatious texting has gotten less. And I may or may not see him when I get back to Orlando after this work trip.

Oh, yeah, I'm in SoFla right now, filling in for a friend for the company that I worked for when I met the last guy. He said we would stay in contact and to text him when I was coming into town. I texted him, he said he was slammed this week but that he would love to see me if it could work out. He told me to text him when I got in town (twice) and that he hoped to see me (twice). Texted him when I got to town on Wednesday. I knew he was supposed to be... out of country... for work Thursday through Tuesday. So when I didn't hear from him, no big deal... Didn't hear from him on Tuesday and I was really getting upset. It's that stupid girl thing. Not so much that I wasn't hearing from him, but that I believe what he said. It seems a trend that I keep falling for. But I texted him again Tuesday afternoon, and he said he had been working during the day and was working again that night and we would chat later. I'm not holding my breath on hearing from him before I go back to Orlando in two days...

Things are going to play out as they play out. I am just going to keep doing what I'm doing and focus more on writing and hopefully producing a short series soon.

Things are looking up.