I wanted to write more about what I think of relationships now and how to handle them, but I need to think about it. It's going to be a long post, and it's getting late.

I do have to say that there are things I have to learn... well keep learning. I have to remember that when people don't feel well they aren't going to act the same way that they might if they were feeling well. Not only that, but being stressed and tired, and then feeling sick on top of that, doesn't make things any better. I know that I don't feel like myself when those things happen.

An addiction to texting tends to be a trend in my generation. Especially with us women who crave constant attention. I need to distance myself a little. DSG works early in the morning, so when I don't hear from him before I wake up, I get a little worried. Tomorrow I'm going to wait until I go to the gym or get back... or maybe when I know he's getting off work... I don't want him to think I don't care, but I don't want to push him away either.

I will need to explain things in greater detail, but I just want to let the world know that I am trying to be better.

Geeks at a Party

Celebration VI was amazing. I got to meet and get my picture with Luke Skywalker AND Princess Leia. Get jealous!

Went to a lot of panels, spent a lot of time on the floor, did a little shopping, and spent time with my family and friends. Had a fantastic time.

Saturday night, I went to the Darkside Grotto Party. Normally, what happens at Darkside Grotto stays at Darkside Grotto. Eff that, I'm going to tell you what happened. I wasn't going to go to the party. I didn't have any money to pay the cover, I didn't have money to pay for drinks. I had gotten up early in the morning to drive out to the con, and I had been there all day. I was tired, but I had missed enough parties and opportunities that weekend, I couldn't let another one go by. Plus, my family said: "YOU ARE GOING TO THIS PARTY!" So after the Carrie Fischer panel, I put some make up on in the bathroom, threw on a dress when I got in my car, and went over to the party. Thankfully my friend had paid for my ticket and got it way before anyone else got there. Thanks to her so much, because I might not have gotten in so quickly and things could have turned out differently.

When we arrived we joined some people my friend knew. Friends of friends of friends... all these geeks. It's amazing walking into a room and knowing automatically that you have something in common with EVERY SINGLE PERSON in the room. You could find something to talk about with everyone. Most people don't get to experience this.

Got to the bar, and stood with the group. Across from some guys, and one in particular catches my eye. I look at him, notice he's looking at me, look to my friends to see if they are going to introduce us, they aren't, I look back to him and try to think of an opening line, and he goes and introduces himself. We spend the next few hours talking. As well as we can in the loud club with pole-dancing GoldenBikini!Leias dancing right behind our heads. We smile, we flirt, and then we dance... well... dancing turned to grinding turned to making out on the dance floor.

We have a great night. DSG* walks me out to the car and we exchange numbers, take pictures, and make plans to meet up the next day. We go to a panel the next day, kiss each other, and then say goodbye. I say "Please text me" and he says "You're not getting rid of me that easily." I smile and have a hard time watching him walk away... then we start texting the next morning and haven't stopped since.

Blasting out some posts!

I've got a few topics to post about, and I'm going to separate them out, but this is the first of... three?

Let's talk boyfriend. My very first boyfriend.... we've split. Well, I broke up with him and he's not over it yet. Things weren't going to work out for the long term. He wasn't going to meet my long term needs, but I've been wanting a boyfriend for a while and getting this experience. I tried for a while to keep it going. He just turned out to be way too immature for me and he didn't have a long term plan, and no drive for the future or any ambition. Once a week he would break up with me via text, but then it wouldn't be a real break up later. I got tired of being pulled on. I tried to make it work past the time I was done, but when he didn't get in contact with me for 48 hours (24 of which was MY BIRTHDAY!) I had to let him go. I broke up with him while I was at Celebration VI. I felt so much better afterward, and the next night, I met a new guy I clicked with right off the bat and haven't stopped talking with yet. That, however, is a story for another post tonight... in fact the next one :)

I'm glad I had that experience, but I'm even more glad it's over. At least on my end, he keeps messaging me on Facebook and liking my pictures and things. I told him that we won't be getting back together, but he says he doesn't care because he wants misses me and thinks he can win me back. He is being so clingy and I don't like me like that at all.

All in all, I'm over it and ready to move on to my next adventure.