Drama is never far

I've always craved drama. It happens when you watch movies and all you want to do is make them. I like drama in movies, you can control it. And I crave a certain kind of drama - drama with boys is always good drama, even when it's bad. Even when you still want someone after they don't want you anymore. Speaking of which, 3 months passed the other day and I almost didn't realize it before the day was over.

The drama I hate is girl drama. Girl drama and girl politics. This is why I don't like girls. They're so much more trouble then I want to deal with. Not saying that I'm not friends with girls, and that I don't like them. I live with girls. I hang out with girls - a lot. I just don't like the drama and the cat fights and the bitchiness that goes along with girls a lot of the time. Not to say I don't contribute to those things.

I am an intimidating person. There's nothing I can do about it. I'm determined, hard headed, and independent. I know what I want and I expect a lot from myself. I don't expect more than necessary from others, but I do expect the best they can do. I get disappointed with people when I know they can do better and they don't even try. But a lot of people, girls a lot of the time, think I hate them when I meet them. That is not true. I just come off a little rough around the edges. It has nothing to do with anyone personally.

I also have this ability where I can separate someone personally from someone professionally. How I view someone either personally or professional doesn't affect the other. I have issues with a few people professionally, but I really like hanging out with them personally.

So now I have to be super nice to everyone so they know I don't hate them. Not that I mind being nice to them, because I don't hate them, but I do hate that I have to play these games. These people think I hate them before they even get to know me. Whatever, I just have to try to act accordingly with each person I meet. Fantastic.

In other news. ADing a film on Sunday that has Nate in it. It's the first time we'll have seen each other since the wrap party in July, 3 months ago. It should be fun.