My POC and APOC and PS really like me a lot. The POC said that she doesn't see me being a PA for much longer. She thinks I'm going to move up very quickly in the industry. This makes me very happy :) The APOC wants to train me to help me move up. I am so appreciative that these women want to help me. I am so grateful.
GOD IS ALWAYS PRESENT TENSE FAITHFUL!
As for guys: I've joined back with the online dating. More to meet friends than actually go on dates, but getting dates doesn't hurt either. I had one date on Saturday and it was... awkward. I'm going to give the guy another chance. And even if it doesn't work, it's a free meal and maybe a friend too. Been talking to this other guy, but I'm getting kind of frustrated because even if he just wants to be friends, he doesn't want to hang out. Which means he doesn't even want to be friends. I messaged this other guy, and he wants to be friends. Which is awesome. I need more friends now than I need to date anyone.
Now what you really want to know: What's going on with B and that guy from the movie during the summer (and since I never named him... let's just go with KB*).
Well...Who do we want to talk about first? Let's talk about KB. Random texts during the holidays. Hey. What's up. How are you. I haven't even started my screenplay yet. That kind of jazz. Then I find out he's going to be in town and we're going to catch up because I'm back in South Florida. Then yesterday he texts me that he's coming into the office tomorrow for an interview with locations. Super. OF COURSE I put on extra make up this morning and actually took time to straighten my hair only because I didn't want to wake up the extra 30 minutes it would have taken to curl the ends of my hair. And my lips are smeared with gloss right now. Sticky. The probably is I don't know exactly what time he's going to walk in. I want to see him again because we're friends and I would like to work and write with him. I don't necessarily want him right now relationship-wise, but that doesn't mean I wouldn't be open to exploring options now or at a later date... Basically right now I want him to want me. That does sound awful doesn't it? AHHH!!! KB is here right now! I should see what he's up to for dinner... I'll ask when he comes back around.
And B. He had his 30th birthday this weekend. Which, in my opinion, is probably bad enough on it's own, what sucks even more is that he's also unemployed. He's really bummed out, and he's lost it more than usual. He had a hard time keeping his mind focused. last night when we were on the phone. Maybe let's back up a little on this. Let's see probably the last thing I said about him was that EFF HIM I HATE HIM I DON'T EVEN CARE ABOUT HIM right? Oh, and then I saw him at Christmas and everything was good. Talked to him a little after that. We're back to being friends. I finally got the wedding photos from LoJo and decided I was going to send them to B since he was in the wedding too. Then I thought up sending him some mixed CDs for his birthday. I made this really kick-ass case for them too. They are pretty neat. Sent those, a birthday card, and the jump drive of pictures to B this week. He opened them yesterday and I got a phone call. He's been pretty down. Lost his job. Maybe can't make rent in the next month or so, worried about that. He asked me about what I think of coming to LA since I was there last month, I told him that I want to, but there are no jobs so I'm not going to risk it. Why feed California if I'm working in a different state. Doesn't make sense. Even if it is "the dream" it's not reality able. Plus, all my contacts out there told me not to come to LA right now since there are no jobs. All of them are actually working in Louisiana for the next few months. Then I told him that I had been on a date and had another one coming up this week. He said he was excited for me... I feel bad for him because he doesn't know how to get it together. He's so lost right now, but there't nothing anyone but B can do about it.
Ok so I have this self-proclaim Coach* who helps me with my dating adventures, right. And he has these rules: come hungry when you're going to drink, build boxes of emotional protection, forgot the third one, and... I don't remember the fourth for now. It's on my iPad at home. Okay so Coach called B the week before last and pretty much asked B if he'd do a long distance thing with me. To which B replied he didn't know. Which is okay with me. I'm not going to say what I think it means, but it doesn't really matter. He doesn't have time to focus on anyone other than himself. Not a big deal. I can't give him what he wants and he can't give me what I want, so there's no point.
Anyway, Coach is the linchpin in the cosmic joke. He likes to instigate things. We'll see how this goes.
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