I'm gonna be just fine

I'll admit it, I did check his Facebook because someone posted a new picture of him from work the other day - but he hasn't been on one a while.

I went to set today to get a contract signed, but I didn't see him. I did look for him, but I didn't look around for him. I wanted to see him to say "Hi" because he is my friend, not because I like him. It's weird.

I'm not into him, I swear I'm not. I just like using what I felt as inspiration for my writing. This story I've been working on the last two years has matured so much. It's the same premise, but the plot has changed significantly - especially since I've had actual dealings in relationships with men.

I've been feeling good now. I am in a good place. I'm getting more sleep. I'm drinking two shakes a day, so I'm hoping that I can keep my weight down before my friends' wedding at the end of next month. I've got a job I like, that applies to what I want to do later. I've been making friends with my desk mate. I'm hoping that we stay in contact after this show - she's really nice. I've been having a good time.

I am content again. I just hope it lasts.