Charlie.

Oi vey.

I know I shouldn't like him because he is a jerk, but he has that chemical/pysiological attraction going for him. He's the total opposite of guys I normally like. Tall, red hair, freckles... and I hate to admit it, but I trust him. Not in the emotional sense, but in the physical sense. I'm ready to experiment with boys within my limitations. I need to learn to kiss. To make guys happy. And to learn to be able to let myself be happy with them. I trust Charlie with this; and ONLY because (and this kind of seems weird) Roxie trusts him as a person. I've known Roxie for 15+ years, and if she trusts him as a friend, then I will trust him too. Kind of messed up I know, but that's the conclusion I've come up with for why I like to keep him around. Plus, he makes me smile and he's a lot of fun - when he's not being a jerk.

We haven't seen each other in over a week. But I did talk to him on Sunday, and he invited me out with his family next week. We had some drama this week, but now it's way over and I'm past explaining it. It has to do with me thinking I drunk texted him and then him asking me what happened... but I didn't drunk message him. Anyway, not the point.

He called me on Sunday and we had a nice conversation for a while. It was really nice. And he invited me out with his family next Sunday. Should be interesting. If it really happens. I want to invite him to the D1s on Friday. But who knows. Plus, Brandon and I are going on Saturday to the D3s.

He's officially on summer schedule now - so we'll see if things change and we can hang out more. As I get more and more *ahem* frustrated I want to see him.