Third time is still a failure

Well things with Charlie are O-V-E-R. Should have had this conversation a long time ago.

C: why u frontin cutie?
Me: i thought you were taking a shower
C: im naked................... NOW
Me: ooo baby
C: u know u like it
Me: oh yeah.
C: stop frontin
Me: me? i never
C: would u fuck me? i would fuck me
Me: do you really want to know
C: what do u have to say
Me: i would.
C: yah im sayin, i know u would. so watch some porn, see whats up, and then give me a call
lol u got that?
Me: i got that
C: and hurry up maneee lol
Me: you know i'm really not going to have sex. even though i want to
C: which is why i cant mess with u
personally..
i like to test drive the car im about to buy
idk about u
Me: understandable
C: i dont want to dissapoint u
but u know where im comin from
ive already had sex with women b4 and to shut it off on something idk completely if i have a future with is blasphemy
Me: so... b/c you don't see something potentially happening with us, you don't want to risk it and get to the point of doing everything else physical except actual intercourse
C: all im sayin is u only live once
and u dont know what ur missing out on
head is fine
all that is cool
but sex is human nature
its natural
and i dont care who tells me its bad
Me: sex is human nature but you're not the one who has to live with the consequences
C: oh ok
Me: it's not bad, it's just not something i'm choosing for myself right now
C: bc ur the chosen one
thats ok
im not downing u for ur beliefs
thats understandable
i just dont get it personally
Me: okay, so you're not go for anything with me, because i won't go all the way. but you understand where i'm coming from
C: im saying im not gonna let myself get wrapped into you
bc sex is important in a relationship
i didnt say not anything
but i dont think it will become very serious without sex
all im sayin
Me: so what do you want or expect from this. because i'm okay if things don't become very serious, but i'm still interested in you.
C: i dont ever expect anything from people
i take it as it comes
im not judgemental
i just notice things that i like and things i dont
Me: so what do you want
C: nothing at all
i dont demand things
i just know what i want
which is a healthy relationship, with regular sex
im being blunt about it but u asked
Me: okay that's fair
but i'm wondering if you're up for something casual and fun and not that serious, or if you are really looking for something more serious
C: idk if u know my past with being friends with roxie and everything
but when i want to get serious with somebody i do
and thats just what im looking for.
i know what i deserve and i dont settle
Me: you shouldn't settle, but we should have had this conversation a while ago


Every other thought I've had about him is now obsolete. Ignore everything because he's so over with. I'm glad I learned what I did, but now it's time to move on. It just makes me laugh that he lied to me, something he doesn't like, or says he doesn't. More truth was told tonight than not. It also is funny that he said he wanted a serious relationship like he had before. But his ex CHEATED ON HIM!!! If that's what you want, then go for it.