Let's get real

I never seem to post these when I first think of them, so they always seem to lose a little of their umph by the time I get them to the page. Let me remember correctly...

I was looking at myself in the mirror, making faces like I always do, as I have always done. If I ever stop making faces at myself, then you know something's wrong. If you lose that childhood instinct, you've really aged.

As I was making facing and projecting different emotions to my reflection, I realized something. I look pretty, sweet, a little sneaky and mischievous as a proper girlfriend should. And that's the heart of it, I want to be a girlfriend. I don't want to date around. I just want a proper boyfriend.

In my 22 years of life, I've never had one. Not ever. And that's all I've really wanted. I'm a monogamist. I want steady and solid. Dating is fun, but I'm so ready for a relationship. But I still can't figure out why I'm not in one.

Okay, well, moving might have something to do with it. And that's got pushed back to mid-August. I really don't want to miss Celebration 5.

Atlas talked to Mary about how he was getting the girlfriend vibe from me. And Mary tried to confuse me and all this drama that goes on naturally. But Atlas and I have had this discussion before. Not getting (emotionally) involved with someone who's leaving...

I'm just going to continue to have fun. To wear my stockings *wink* and cause some mischief and then start my life in a new town where I know next to no one. What an exciting life for a twenty-something.