Long overdue

I would preface this with a little defense, but then again, the defense would make me look like one so I'm not going to say it. I'll just let it be whatever it is.

Okay. So went with Charlie to that party on Thursday night. Had a good time, used him like he deserves. He was saying all night, "you're my girlfriend for the night" "When I say you're cute it means you're supposed to kiss me" and "How do you like being my girlfriend for the night?". Dude, do you not remember what you said to me a few weeks before? Do you think I would ever want to be your girlfriend after you said I was second rate. Hell no. Did I make out with him, yes. Making out is fun, and he's cute and a good kisser. I'm not going to say no.

That doesn't make me a bad person. And neither does the next bit.

He drives me back home. We make out in my driveway, I maybe am a little bit leading him on. He says he wishes this could continue. I tell him he has work in the morning. I walk around the corner, his car pulls away, I jump back in mine and head over the Atlas' house where my friends are hanging out at.

Atlas, Mary, and I end up having a fun conversation in his room. I find out a lot of things. Of which I'm not going to reveal because Atlas will probably read this and I still want it to be a game whether he remembers or not what he said.

Anyway, it was all very interesting. I did find out he likes stockings, and oh! guess who was wearing some. haha.

Friday night the group with Atlas, Mary, her bf and others go to Fazoli's out in BFE. Service was terrible, that must be why all the rest have disappeared. We hang out for a long time, go back to Atlas' house. I leave kind of early because I have a wedding and concert to attend the next day. While at Fazoli's, Charlie calls me twice in less than 3 minutes. I'm out with friends, I'm not going to answer. He texts me, I wait 5 minutes then text back. He said he needed my help but nvm b/c it was too late. He called me the moment he got out of class. I just said ok... because he wasn't telling me anything else. I haven't heard from him since.

We'll see if anything happens this weekend. It was supposed to be a simple weekend, but it seems I'm always busy. I can't catch a break.